today really do not fall under the category of the good days of my life. by counting the number of stuff that didn't go right, i think i need to use my toes already. and not being able to understand finance since lecture 1 does not help at all.

i really need to get my priorities straight. 1 wrong decision and something bad leads to something worse. and i'm never going to do anything right if i'm unable to decide what's the best at the right times. or the right times will just become a wrong time.

i really really need to start behaving like a 19 year old. till now, i do and say stuff that i regret later. but then, whats done can't be undone. and i really really got to learn from my mistakes.

tolerence is truely a good virtue. but its also one of the most difficult things to do. esp when you know that some things are totally not relavant to whatever is happening. but then again, there's nothing we can do sometimes. i'm sure it's nothing as compared to the outside world. i'll try to consider it as a training for the future. but it really doesn't feel good.

i have to be more responsible and careful when doing things. if not i'll just disappoint the people who have trusted me. i've made a mistake today. and i promise to be really really careful in future.

however, i'm really greatful for all the nice little stuff that's happening around me. friends who encourage me by telling me, "jiayou! i know you can do it!" or "don't worry, everything will be all right." a hug, a pat on the back, even a simple "are you ok?" means alot to me. even smiles of strangers along the streets can be very comforting on a bad day. little stuff that i notice whenever i'm down. like my father who is singing pitchlessly(more like howling) next door cuz he's tipsy. =)

and today eggy had an equally bad day like me. dun be sad eggy. i'm with you! everything will be fine after a good night's sleep! afterall, we won't appreciate a good day if there were no bad days. let's listen to daniel powter's bad day today. =)

p.s. i'm really really sorry to the people i've caused trouble to today. sorry.