• 02 October 2007, 10:05:00 PM
thanx for making me feel downright crappy... just in the 1 second... u made my happy mood disappear...
just because i didnt turn up for meetings? even when i have an excuse... ok that was a minor mistake i made... but i sent that email to you only... i didnt like forward it to the whole gang of people on the list... u mean i look like those kind who will butter up and dig some advantage out of it? or u mean i'm trying to show the other people that i'm more superior cuz i'm on better terms with u.. or are you thinking that i make friends by looking at what kind of advantage i can get out of it... this reminds me of somebody i really dislike...
i am not like that...
crap... now i'm regretting the fact that i actually convinced myself that joining all these stuff is supposed to be fun and somewhat beneficial...
stupid politics... i shd have just stick with touch and run ard in the sun and rain... its all just so much easier... at most u get some shouts and bruises, cuts and disappointments... not so complicated stuff... things that i never even thought of doing..
damn irritating... why must all the irritating things happen altogether... i cant even choose what i want to do... and the insecurity of not knowing whats going to happen next...
school is going to become busy... compensating for all the relaxed weeks before... the school library is already so packed and the stress level is going up... i guess i'm very lucky to have all the people around me... although sometimes they make me mad... life is fair..
p.s. sometimes i know you dont mean it... but i just cant help feeling abit depressed... is it me?
